aye...decisions, decisions...kimber, we came this close...ugh, wutever..we'll see. YAY! i'm excited for my debut...even though i have yet to find a venue to hold practices at...i duno, though. i'm so relieved i thought things were gona be awkward between me and some people in my court. but it's good to know that although status has changed, the friendship is still there. YAY!!!!! i'm on such a sugar rush rite now. i got back from gabe's half an hour ago and i duno...i think i had too much boba and cheesecake...kris, ur cute...one day we'll figure out this whole door locking business...oh, i'm gona miss this =(

this weekend was a constant debut fest...friday, i had practice for kristina's debut from 5-9 at the holiday inn. then i went to baby's house to see wut was on the agenda for the rest of the evening. we stopped by david's birthday thing for a good 2 hours or sumthing & then went to gabe's & geron, adam, & me were talkin about college and wut little time we have left together. it's really sad...i've seriously grown so attached to everyone and how things are. i mean, i doubt any of us will be able to call each other just to go chill cuz none of us are gona be within the same vicinity at the same time...well, maybe for christmas...if anything. then, saturday i went to the holiday inn around 12ish to get my hair done and alla that. that nite went by pretty quickly. the program ran a lil longer than expected but it was cool. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN, KRISSY!!!!! thanks for asking me to be in your court. it was an honor! this morning was kind of a lazy day...i went to monica's for practice around 430-5ish. and we sat around watching a home video of monica's 4th birthday. filipino birthdays are so funny!!!!!! especially when there's coverage of the lil one's playing with their new birthday clothes, toys, and splashin around in the shower...hahahaha....oh, man...fun times. well, after practice, dido, geron & me went on a lil hunt for nutter butters and then i took them home...

other 1/2, ur too cute...today i had to fill out this thing for the program for baby's debut & according to kris my info is as follows:
name: marvie
school/grade: hfhs 12
hobbies: leaving
it kinda took me a while to get it, but apparently she's sad that i'm goin to san diego for school. hahaha...i mean, i've only been saying it for hte past month or so but she said that she didn't believe i was actually going. according to her, i was gona go to calpoly pomona or sumthin. she thought it was one of those, "damnit, i didn't get into ucla, so i'm gona go to the farthest most illogical school that accepts me." the poor thing kept puffing out her bottom lip. it's okae, kiki, i'll only be an hour and a half away. we can still have fun or wutever...

and, adam and gabe...don't be so sad...we'll be back every weekend...well at least for the first couple months...& by then it'll be christmas so everything will work out. we won't be separated THAT much...well, not as soon as it feels, anyway...

YAY!!!!! I HAVE A ROOMMATE!!!!!! baby and me will be sleeping, eating & doing our homework on banigs and by candlelight, but it's okae...we won't be alone!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! GO AZTECS!!!!!!!! hahaha...

yeah, so i was jumpin and celebrating when i got my acceptance letters from the 5 calstates i applied to and msmc. but, it looks as though the celebrating's all done for marvie...stupid uc's and ambiguous usc. ugh, wutever this whole high school business is almost over and done with anyway. it' like geron said, "at least i don't have to work as hard anymore. i didn't get into ucla anyway." or something along those lines. i feel so bad for my mama, though. she spent so much money on summer school at ucla (ugh, just HAD to get the name brand) and i didn't get in. i hate it. little naive me, thinking going to summer school just for "fun" would aid in my admissions probability. WUTEVER!!!!

*THIS ISN'T DIRECTED TOWARDS ANY PARTICULAR PERSON, SO DON'T TAKE OFFENSE TO IT OR THINK I'M PUBLICIZING OUR BUSINESS ON THE WEB*

i admit, things are different now. but change, as inevitable as it is, isn't necessarily a bad thing. i've never expected things to stay the same forever. i've just hoped for things to be...mutual. i mean, over time you can't feel a certain way about someone or something forever. that feeling will change to some degree or evolve to some other retrospect or context. my philosophy on friends especially is if you're gona call someone ur friend, then you don't HAVE to talk to them everyday, you don't HAVE to say hi or bye to them everytime you see them, you don't HAVE to tell them any and everything that's going on, and long periods of not talking to a person isn't indifference if there is no reason for it. i mean, if someone's ur friend, you should be comfortable enough to talk to them when or wherever. i duno. thas just me. latey, a lot of people have been taking offense to people's blogs, so if you're taking offense or wutever to this entry, then that means we have to talk. half the time i don't even know what i'm doing, so don't take it personal.

i'm gona miss high school. as stupid, monotonous, confusing, hectic, immature, bombarding, etc. as it can be, i'm gona miss it. rite now i'm so playing the role of "not a girl not yet a woman" hahaha...that was so lame, but it totally fit. i'm gona miss the dances, the excitement of meeting new people, knowing everyone, the security, the establishment, the opportunities that seemed to fall rite in your hands. my high school experience so far has been the most intense 4 yrs...ever. granted i'm only 17, it's still a big deal. i mean, a lot of the major events happened within such a short span of time. the whole "finding oneself," meeting some of my closest friends, discovering new interests, making mistakes so humongous all i got to walk away with was yet another lesson, that "first love" you'd never forget, and all that other good stuff...i'm gona miss it. it irks me to think that i could've done so much more in addition to what i did with my life thus far. but i guess thats okae. all you can do with the past is remember it and learn from it.

so, my debut is actually coming togethe somewhat...if i'm actually able to keep my mom from getting mad at me, i think it'll actually go through. it's so expensive, though. ugh, i duno...hurts my head just thinking about it...this sucks...

Yesterday - the Beatles
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe, in yesterday

Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday, came suddenly

Why, she, had to go, I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said, something wrong
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe, in yesterday

Why, she, had to go, I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said, something wrong
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe, in yesterday

Why, she, had to go, I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said, something wrong
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe, in yesterday

this morning i woke up to Don't Know Why - Nora Jones...thas such a pretty song...

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in white
You'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in white
You'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

hmmm...the last time i blogged was a lil more than a week ago. well, formal went by ever so quickly. it felt so short. but it was fun. i love my buddy justin. what a life saver. THANK YOU BEST FRIEND FOR GOING WITH ME EVEN IF IT WAS LAST MINUTE...YOU'RE GREAT...THOUGH I DOUBT YOU'LL EVER READ THIS...but, yeah...formal was fun. justin & me matched even though he had no idea what we i was wearing (it was kinda crazy...the hues were like right on. hahaha...oh, lord i'm such a nerd). oh, & once again eo worked his magic on my face and hair...wut a gandalf...but i should go get read now...i'll blog later...

Day Seven

Suspect Eowyn fancies me. Cannot blame her as stubble so manly is turning even self on.
- taken from THE SECRET DIARY OF ARAGORN SON OF ARATHORN Part 2

UGH, ITS SO TRUE!!!!!! ARAGORN IS SUCH A MAN!!!!!!! WOW!

if u've read my previous blogs and my profile you'd know that legolas really ISN'T my fancy, but i just thought the quote at the top of hte banner was cool...


Legolas is my fancy!
What's your fancy? Click here and tell the world!

kimber worded it best in her blog...

"This is no mere ranger! He is Aragorn son of Arathorn. You owe him your allegiance" -Legolas -translation: "Don't insult my boyfriend betch! He's totally your king, so shut the hell up!" haha...man, what an elf! haha

today kinda started off pretty slow. last nite i was on the phone with kimber & ivy planning to have a bit of a LoTR fest...but in order to do that & be home at a reasonable hour we would have to start the whole thing at about 8am...OBVIOUSLY that didn't happen. kimber called & woke me up around 9:30 and since i sounded all lazy she didn't even bother to wake up ivy. at first it really saddened me cuz none of us were available to go through with the plans - kimber went shopping with her family, ivy was cleaning around the house, & i was taking care of my lil cousin and cleaning my room. but around 12ish aud, judy, & mocha called to see if i wanted to watch just married at paseo. then weena called to see if she could borrow a dress for formal. so,yeah...weena came over with anthony and our new friend ronnel. then i took my cousin to pick up mocha & go to aud's where were all supposed to meet up. then i got ivy & mary & we all waited at aud's. but of course, ever so predictably, we all lagged and missed like 1/2 an hour of the movie. AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! all of us were in really pissy moods after that. it was literally hte worst display of hormonal rage in a long time. hahaha...well, maybe not hormonal rage persé but it wasn't very pretty. so ivy, mary, mocha, my cousin & me decided to go eat at noodle world instead. mMmMmMmMmMm...garlic spare ribs, garlic pork, (insert flavor here) chicken, chicken pad see ew, pork chops, cappuccino oreo boba...YUMMMM!!!! hahaha...i love eating with them...i think we were bein kinda loud though. there was only like 5 of us but all the people around us kept looking...wutever fun times

oh, man...i love my bobapuff sisters. i know i don't reall take the time to say it, but i really do. like, i seriously don't know wut i would do without them. lately there have been so many times that i've felt like i was on the outside looking in, but they've always made me feel wanted...::sigh:: i guess the "usuals" haven't been so usual and the times that they were i took it for granted. but i duno...wutever!!! people go their separate ways every once in awhile right? & there's a rhyme & reason for every event...no matter how disappointing or (insert ur feeling here) it is...but, i duno...my bobapuff sisters are great...always there, no matter wut's goin on...::sigh:: they're great...

hahaha...ivy's tellin me about his cute white guy she met...it kinda sucks though cuz she totally built him up when i talked to earlier & she just sent me his picture. it sux for him cuz he los a lot of pogi points since he didn't really measure up to the portrait i painted in my mind. hahaha...but he's cute. i'll give him that much. oh, man...that sounds so mean, but wutever...AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!; gfljtopetlzjklfuj8 tu54w ojkljgl;j0p574 jgl;kjdbfljlJJK YHOI JKh 98yo hj JLJ L Y9YKJhk gjhhf lshj...I CAN'T WAIT TIL WE ACTUALLY BUST OUR MISSION!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i'm so excited!!!!!!

ugh, silly me...i waited til the last minute to find a date & formal's like 4 days away and i still don't have one...if i knew this was gona happen i woulda juss paid for a single and stagged it with kimber & ivy...but wutever...i'll find someone, i guess...but if i end up stagging it anyway, that sucks for whoever coulda gone with me...hahaha...(ivy, fill in my thought)...AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! wutever ima SO rock formal no matter wut...

let's see...i haven't really blogged about a particular day in a while so i guess i'll do that today...

tues. jan. 14, 2003: day 1 of 1st sem. finals...oh, man. i had my physics and world religions finals on the same day. those're my hardest subjects so it's needless to say that i was dreading that day and i'm glad it's behind me. well, the day started off with me havin some unfortunate case of memory loss cuz i could've sworn my physics final was takin place during the second session. so, stupid me, i was juss chillin at home all warm & cozy in my bed when i got to school i checked the shedules to see wut room my final was in, only to find i had missed all but 15 minutes of it. so, i asked our principal if i could take it during the second session and by some grace of God she actually let me. & rite after that i got raped during my world religions final. afterwards, i attended to some yrbk business. when my mom picked me up she wanted me to go with her to the dealership to sign some papers & since i hadn't ridden in my car yet, i was more than willing to go. (yes, i'm a dork & i know it) while we were on our way, emman called and claimed he had called me monday night asking if i could attend the events co. meeting (i have no recollection of this alleged call, but i went anyway). so, when i got back home, i went to the meeting & chilled for a bit. they're really nice. then, i went home...

wed. jan. 15, 2003: i only had my gov't final that day but it was in the SA room where it was ssssooooooooo cold. but it's okae. everyone finished early and had ample time to answer the bonus question and take at least a 10 min. nap. after that i went to go eat at porto's with bren & kris. yummmm...porto's. but then they had to go to the lawyer's and i went to the mall for like 5 min. with karl. while i was there i bumped into kristen & monica & i asked them if they wanted to come with me to drop off boba for kimber at school. so, we went to bobaworld got some blended strawberry with black tea & milk and headed off to la salle. it was like 5 min. til lunch was over but kimber got to enjoy her boba anyway. then i went to pick up my dad at the dealership cuz he dropped off my car to get the security system done. went online & chatted with coleen for a bit & picked up mommy from work so we could get my car. then i went to st. dom's for a leader meeting, got the pics from the loyal formal (go to kris' site for that one...we look all cool and "hey, we're frolicing in the snow!"), & got my car blessed by deacon mike...

thurs. jan. 16, 2003: last day of finals. just trig. & wrld. lit. fun times...went to kris(ta)'s house in the morning cuz we were planning to have breakfast with coleen & esther but i got there a bit late so we just went to mcdonald's & took finals. then, kris & baby went with me to run some errands and we got back to school cuz i had drill practice. oh, man...I LOVE GOING TO PRACTICE!!!!!! seriously, it makes me wana dance. hahaha...then, i took mary home so she could change & we went to my house so i could change. went t go get some boba before we headed off to see macbeth. & then, we got lost...you'd think st. francis would be by a BIG street. and when i say BIG street i don't mean the outstretches of a main street. i mean on the main part. or at least on an easily visible area of the street, but wutever. so, yeah...we watched macbeth met some of the cast cuz apparently michelle knows anybody who's anybody. hahah...& then went home. it's so dark out there...mary and me were seriously scared while walking to the car. but we got back safely...

fri. jan. 17, 2003: i woke up a lil later than usual. but who cares? i didn't have school...the plan for that day was to go shopping with baby & geron, but that didn't end up happening. i picked up mary & we headed off to la salle so i could pick up ivy & head off to melrose. we ended up walkin around for a bit, though. it was kinda fun playin visitor, even though i totally looked outta place...everyone else was in jeans and a t'shirt...i wore a brown skirt, my green "gettin' lucky in kentucky" shirt, a lil green scarfy thing around my waist, and my white chucks. ::sigh:: such a comfy outfit. but, yeah...i chatted it up a bit with a couple of the teachers...they're really nice. especially mr. reinke...i've met him literally like 5 times, but he's really cool. he had his students write an essay on "why justin timberlake is so hot" obviously it was a nonsensical essay, but one that takes passion & creativity. then rosa, ivy, mary & me went o ivy's. then went our separate ways to get ready for the debut (cept rosa, she went to the bball game). & ivy, kris, mary, judy, weena, & me were off to monrovia to celebrate the birth of ms. arlyn...HAPPY BIRTHDAY! it was a pretty chill nite, though...

sat. jan. 18, 2003: went to practice & to in-n-out w/kimber. oh, yeah...we had a hardcore LoTR discussion there...oh, man...fun times...then to ivy's so kimber could open her present. later, i called her & we wanted to do something, but we had nothing to do...it kinda sucked at first cuz i had my car w/a full tank of gas, and nowhere to go. it was really sad cuz we ended up going to glendale...ugh, i hate that place...but, yeah...then i rented to ext. version of lord of the rings & we got some leo's...YUMMM!!!!! and went to her house to eat, chit chat, & watch some "taildaters." very chill night...